A Vortex of Hate

May 26, 2021 (170 words)

Sometimes things don’t go according to plan. At some point the woman I made a lifetime commitment to made her own conscious decision not to be happy with her lot in life. This extended to no longer being in love with me, and not wanting to be married anymore.

But rather than seek a divorce and move on, she chose instead to withdraw-in-place. Lots of passive aggressiveness, lots of unfriendly non-verbal communication.

After years of this, years of living in my own head, praying that one day the dark clouds would part and a willingness to engage with me would return, I have recently concluded this story is not destined for a happy ending. No matter how much I may want things to work out between us.

In coming to terms with this unusual situation, I believe the universe (i.e., God) is satisfied that I have fulfilled my marital obligation, and is giving me permission to remove myself from what has unfortunately become nothing more than a vortex of hate.

Robert J. Cavanaugh, Jr
May 26, 2021